Losing someone

My first experience of losing someone was when i was 10.
It doesn't count because at 10 i barely developed consciousness.
Since then, I had zero absentees.

This year, i've encountered a tide of change. One of them is the impending recurrence of losing someone. It's hard to describe the feeling upon receiving the bad news; it's not happening to you, but it sure as hell affects you. I wasn't sure how much (or what) emotions should I express, sad? very sad? devastatingly tragic, or mere empathy. I guess the only option is to feel numb/stunned, as I was the only one in my room and alone in the house, who will or could hear me?

Not all is lost. The good news is she's reacting positively to the therapy.

I hate it when ripples are formed in my imaginary life-pond. I hope it reverts to its original calm surface.... soon.



"You know what the problem with our family?"
"No, what's the problem?"
"The closeness. We stick to each other too much as family members."
"What wrong with that?"
"......"