Shower of Thoughts

It is strange that every time I shower or take a dump, i start to think of stuff i've never thought before. I'm suspecting that stimulations on either end of my body actually work the creative side of the brain! LOL!

And unfortunately, by the time i started typing what i wanted to say, i couldn't find the words to express it. Gotta take more showers and dumps.

I blame the exam revisions on its mind-numbing effect. It's like Alzheimer's disease. Plus it is my (hopefully) final semester, all the more reasons to get stressed. Oh fuck.

Dear dear blog, what shall I do? The Google team should develop a program that provides A.I psychiatric (or psychological?) advice to bloggers, considering that most of them are troubled (like me :)


Ah, I remembered! Thoughts! I was thinking of 'Where does thoughts come from?' in the shower! You see, it all started when i was thinking about 'Abortion'.

Abortion, a word of taboo. Some people think that it is outright the wrong thing to do, on the other hand, some people thinks it is 'Okay' to abort a fetus before its brain is fully developed.

Does it mean that a body without a brain is a body of a non-human? Yes, IMHO. For instance, a brain-dead patient can be hooked onto a life-support system and still 'live' but not 'think'. And, relatives of the patient may choose not to sustain the patient's life and simply pull the plug. So, based on that, (i guess) pro-abortionist do not consider a fetus w/o a fully developed brain as human.

So, now lets head to the topic of thoughts. The difference between a brain dead guy and a brain 'alive' guy is, well - a functional brain. And thoughts, as we all might agree, comes from the gray matter located up north. The ingredients of 'gray matter' are similar for all humans in majority; brain cells - protein - neurons - capillaries, etc etc. But since all brains are made of the same ingredients, why don't they generate the same thoughts?

This can be either a completely dumb question, or the opposite. Certainly I do fantasize that the 'structure' of molecular bonds within the protein or the distribution of neurons might affect the generation of 'thoughts', but it really puzzles me on what is the 'thing' that governs our thoughts and consequently our actions.

What makes you take the left/right turn, what makes mistakes out of you, what makes your principles, what makes you think? And i'm not talking about 'feeeeelings' or 'intuition' or 'guts' those bullshit, ok? I'm asking for some thing physical, like 'There's a switch in your brain that flips on/off', or 'The DNA on the 3rd helix on the right cerebral cortex.....' ??? I'm imagining that the brain has millions and millions of colored ping-pong balls. And thoughts comes from the effects of those ping-pong balls bouncing at each other. Kinda lame, but possible :)

If scientists do understand the brain completely in the future, they can prevent humans from making mistakes by altering your brain 'structure'. It can avoid accidents, disasters and save millions of lives.

But, do we want to be 'altered'? To live a life of mistakes and lessons or to live like 'The Truman Show' (...starring Jim Carrey) - without mistakes?